A path to nothingness
Time and again to ponder over such questions- why am I doing this? What is the purpose of the art I am making? ...useless again to visit this query prompted by my fickle mind. Many times, one might wonder- do I really need to do this? I mean- who really cares?? But the point is, that is not for me to decide. For this is what comes out from my soul and there is not much I can do about it.
So,
probably just like a sparrow sings a song not because she wants to sing …it is
because she was born with this song written in her heart…and this is what will always
come out from her.
If I try to
claim the position of an artist- a silent voice inside me calls out- “…?”
Thus, my
soul speaks to me and says, I am not the artist- for the art resides somewhere
else. And the song is also born much before I sang it. But to empty my self from
the superficial notions and to become like a clear glass so that the light/song
that is conceived somewhere else can pass through my being in the most unadulterated
form is the only purpose in order to carry the privilege I am granted.
Just like Gibran
says-
…the lamp which
I carry
does not belong to me,
and the song that I sing was
not generated from within me.
Even if I walk with light,
I am not the light;
and if I am a taut-stringed lute,
I am not the lute player.
The journey is
towards the nucleus of my own being… the nucleus being the nothingness. Quiet often
I am visited by maya. Time and again my journey is tested and my notions break.
Again, I think the process in a way follows the path towards nothingness.
The person who
is referred to as artist in this world, is also many other things- a friend, a caregiver, a student, a traveller…many identities while we exist in this world... artist being
just one of them. So, for my own saying- I decided to not to label myself and
if I call myself an artist-- will not mean much to me but maybe sometimes it is
just for the reference for others till the time…
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